If you are living with chronic pain, you’ve surely been asked to rate your pain levels or perhaps keep a daily log to track the ups and downs. On a scale of 1-10, what’s your pain level today?
I hate to do it. I hate to keep track of my pain levels. Everyday, I have to evaluate how I felt, how well I was able to function and if I ate something (like a brownie) that triggered more head pain and made everyhting worse. It forces me to focus on the pain when all I want to do is forget about it, distract myself, and go on living.
Keeping my eye on the pain scale takes away my ability to minimize the pain at the end of the week. I have to look at the chart hanging on the fridge and say “not a low pain week, huh?” If it isn’t there, staring me in the face, I can say instead, “Not such a bad week. ” Luckily, my memory doesn’t serve me too well. It’s only after a week of really intense pain that I may start to say I’ve been having a few bad days.
After all, it could be worse.
It surely has been worse.
So this week I’m not going to mention my pain on a scale of 1-10 to anyone. I am not going to discuss high pain / low pain days. I am simply going to enjoy this week as best I can. I am going to be as productive as possible. I’m going to be enthusiastic. Ooops. Let’s try that again. I’m going to be enthusiastic!!!
I don’t quite feel it yet. I’ll keep working on it.
In the meantime, I am trying out some new meds, for the first time in 3 years. So far, I’m….oh, wait. I just said I wasn’t going to refer to any pain levels. Well, you’ll have to wait for the next post for an update (which will likely be a rant about side effects). Let’s just say I’m having a good week. And my fridge is only home to pictures of my darling daughters and the number for my favorite pizza place.